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surrounded by darkness,why won't you give me a chance?

surrounded by darkness,I keep seeing you in every shadow

I look for you...but i'm only surrounded by darkness.

I close my eyes and you're there.I open my eyes and you're there

I can't keep you off my mind,I'm thinking about you all the time

But i'm only surrounded by darkness...............//_-

I cry myself to sleep at night,Feel the walls closing tight......

I sit in my bed cutting my writs,bleeding,crying silent tears

Should I live today?

Do you even know i'm alive?

Should I die today?

DO YOU EVEN KNOW MY NAME?

I love you...but I can see you don't feel the same way.

I'm surrounded by darkness...I hate this life...

I only keep myself alive for you.hoping one day...

you will love me too...I look for you....But...

I'm surrounded by darkness...

It was a stormy,dreadful afternoon in the park.I sat on the old park bench in the rain holding a razor blade to my wrist which i was about to cut deeply when,suddenly a man who was about in his older teen years let's to say about 20 years of age walks up to me.He looked as if he were about to cry."Why?"why do you want to cut yourself?"he ask.I have no idea who he was so i simply looked at him and ask"Who are you?" "Answer my question and I'll tell you"He demanded.I sticked the blade into my pocket.And stand."It's non of your buisness!"I walked away,when suddenly I feel his hand onto my arm i pulled back.I looked at him."Let me GO!"I fumed.But then i was fixed into his eyes...gazing at him,he had a very handsome face,his lips,his emo looking hair,his eyes,even his applebottoms were beautiful.I had nothing else to say but to stare into his face."What's wrong?"he asked.I took my eyes off him blushing."Nothing"I said blankly."Well ok if you say so."he crooned.Soon then he was dragging me around the park.Feeling very uncomfortable,It seems like i have a crush on him or something,Finally he ask."Why?"will you please tell me why you were about to do that?"I burst into tears and wailed straight out."My boyfriend hates me!"I sobbed."He said i'm worthless,and i'm a nonsense to him!"I don't know anything to live for..."i wearied.Out of nowhere he pulls me right into his arms.His chest was against mines.He was so warm.My heart started pounding so hard.Then he whispered into my ear."That's not true,you have me to live for..."Shocked to what I just heared.I was just out of it..I mean just by looking at this guys face,he was extremly HOT...his soft dark brown hair,his eyes.....After embracing me,he looked straight into my eyes,put his hands over my cheeks.My mind was a wreck,I didn't know what I was doing.His face came closer and closer to me.I closed my eyes.Just by that very moment his soft lips were pressed against mines.I couldn't move,my whole body felt like a shock going through me.I wanted to be like this forever.Three minutes we broke apart,the guy was still holding me close and told me"I love you."I look back at him."But I don't even know your name"who are you?"I questioned.He smiled down at me and gave me a quick peck on the lips."My name is Brendon Urie."he answered.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

        True love is scare is crossed as prickles and thorns on juniper tree 

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                         [C]True love is rare it's easy falling in love this time...true love isn't a fairytail,love isn't make believe,true love like OURS ...is worth so much more than a diamond ring,true love isn't a fairytale,love isn't make believe true love like OURS ....is worth so much more than a diamond

                                             MISERY BUISNESS               song from:Paramore

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                 I'm in the buisness of misery lets take it from the top she's got a body like an hour glass it's tickin' like a clock it's a matter of time before we all run when i thought he was mines she caugth him by the mouth i waited 8 long months she finally set free i told him i couldn't lie he was the only one 4 me 2 weeks we'd caugth on fire she's got it out for me but i wear the biggest smile...                                         [C]Whoa i never ment to brag but i got him where i want him now ,WHOA it was never my intention 2 brag,steal it all away from you now                                                                          but god does it feel so good  cuz i got him where i want him now if u could then you know u would cuz god it just feel so...... it just feels so good     ...........................................   second changes they don't matter never people never change but watz a whore you're nothing more i'm sorry that will never change and about 4givness we're both supposed to have x-change i'm sorry honey but i passed off now look this way there's a million other girls who do it just like u looking as innocent as possible 2 get to get who? they want and what they like it's "E-Z if u do it right."well i refuse,i refuse,I REFUSE!                              [C]whoa i never ment to brag but i got him where i want him now WHOA it was never my intention 2 brag,steal it all away from u now but god does it feel so good cuz i got him where i want him right now... if u could then u know u would cuz god it just feel SOOOOOOOOOO! .....it just feel so good... i watch his wildest dreams come true not one of them involving YOU just watch my wildest dreams come true NOT ONE OF THEM INVOLVING!         [guitar solo]                                                                                    [ENDING]:WHOA! i never ment to brag boy,i got him where i want him now WHOA i never ment 2 brag but i got him where i want him now WHOA! it was never my intention 2 bra-a-ag steal it all away from u now but god does it feels so good cuz i got him where i want him right now! and if u could then u know u would cuz god it just feel SOOOOOOOOOOO! It just feel so good...